I feel concerned about my AI usage.

I think use of AI affects my critical thinking skills.

Let me start with doc and conversions, when I write something it is unrefined, instead of thinking about how to write it nicer my brain shuts down, and I feel the urge to just let a model edit it.

A model usually makes it nicer, but the flow and the meaning and the emotion it contains changes. Like everything I wrote was written by someone else in an emotional state I can't relate.

Same goes for writing code, I know the data flow, libraries use etc. But I just can't resist the urge to load the library public headers to an AI model instead of reading extremely poorly documented slop.

Writing software is usually a feedback loop, but with our fragmented and hyper individualistic world, often a LLM is the only positive source of feedback. It is very rare to find people to collaborate on something.

I really do not know what to do about it, my station and what I need to demands AI usage, otherwise I can't finish my objectives fast enough.

Like software is supposed to designed and written very slow, usually it is a very complicated affair, you have very elaborate documentation, testing, sanitisers tooling etc etc.

But somehow it is now expected that you should write a new project in a day or smth. I really feel so weird about this.