Iwtl how to become smart again

As someone (20f) who’s always struggled forming her opinions social media has made a very negative impact on me and the introduction to chat gpt made it worse. I feel completely dump and like all my opinions fake. I even had the idea to start wiring down my personal opinions and the things that I support and then justify why I support it and my honest opinion. I’m now in the process of deleting all my chats on chat gpt all together. During the process of using ai I figured that I am able to solve my own issues but I always need approval or someone giving me a reality check. My biggest step was going back to journaling. I’ve been doing it more consistent and I’m planning on doing it daily again like I used to.

This may sound very dumb but I know I should read (I used to be such a bookworm and I’ve been stuck on the same books for months) and that reading will make me smarter. I know what I should be doing but I just can’t? It’s like I’m almost scared of it.

So yeah embarrassing to say but I want to learn how to learn/ use my brain again